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I guess I'm coming back to DA. I've missed it around here, a bit. I won't lie. It has a lot of negative memories from my years with different people, in different communities, with different friends. I think many of us from DA in the older days have a few stories to tell.


But I'm older now. I have changed a lot and learned more about what matters to me. I am dealing with my demons and celebrating my successes. All things considered, I'm proud of where I am! Also, my art's gotten a fuck ton better. If you follow me on twitter or instagram, you've already followed my art journey! I think that this profile deserves a little cleanup and update based on where I'm at now. ----


The thing is...I'm not quite sure HOW to come back to DA? I won't be taking commissions thru here (I will link to my other socials for that), and am primarily a furry/humanoid artist. I still see a lot of people doing Ponies, Warriors, Closed Species...oh deviantart don't change XD. I guess since I don't do a lot of that frequently anymore I hope I can still find a place. If you by slim chance got this far, tell me how DeviantART has been in my absence! In the meantime, I'll be changing a LOT about my gallery and page. I'm not sure what my 'return' to DA will fully look like, or even how frequently I'll even post, but we'll see!

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Join Warriors: Clan Legends

and create your stories with us!

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It is many, many moons into the future, and the clans have long since moved or disbanded - no one knows. From kittypets to loners, rogues to strays, stories of clan cats have been passed down from generation to generation until they were all but forgotten. The territory by the lakes has also been abandoned, for the most part, by twolegs, and the land itself has changed. There are cats here, yes, but they are not unified. And they need to be - bobcats, foxes, hawks, eagles, wolves, venomous snakes and spiders have taken the lives on many cats who dare to wander out alone. And they're growing stronger. To protect themselves, cats must come together and give rise to clans once again. The cats know the legends of Mighty Thunder, Dark Shadow, Swift Wind and Enduring River, and have decided to try and replicate the clans of old. But will it be enough? Will they be able to drive the threat to their home back and reclaim their glory?

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Warriors: Clan Legends is a laid-back RP server with a low activity requirement.

Story building and roleplaying will reveal more available ranks and perhaps affiliations! You'll have to see. 

We support LGBT and PoC individuals without fail.

Paragraph style roleplay with a minimum 3 sentence and maximum 2 paragraph. We want this accessible to all types of roleplayers.

Rated PG-13! 

Come join us. 

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These are some people I think are awesome!
:iconpricemc::iconwintergiraffe::iconqatsby::iconadelinawolf::iconasche-r: :iconkelmis::iconnicedf: :iconstarlitmachine::iconmoro456: :iconcuddlycuttlefish: :iconchailatteproductions: :iconangeltheshifter::iconthe-dark-fallen::icondaimyon621::iconnewt-onix::iconmarlo404::iconsagethewolfblooded::iconayachan993:
+ more to be added ilu all <3

If you're not here and we're friends, just remind me via note!

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Here are some things I've drawn

[COM]: Luthanium Relaxes by ChocolateQuill Too Much Science by ChocolateQuill Thank You by ChocolateQuill

And here are some things drawn for me, by others!

Tilt-a-Whirl by qatsby Akua by ChaiLatteProductions :AT: ChocolateQuill by Pinky-Poodle.
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Some vulnerable bi thoughts for you this morning. It's long, but it matters:

Inspired by both Eugene from the Try Guys and my bomb-ass friend Anya.

So I'd say a good 90% of the people in my life know that I identify with the labels of bisexual and pansexual. If you don't know and you're finding out now, where the heck have you been? LOL! For now and because I've been feeling it more recently, I am going to use bi for the rest of this post.

I have literally always been attracted to more than one gender, but I didn't have a label for it until 8th/9th grade. My friends group at the time talked about our identities in that manner, and I identified as 'bi-curious' until I realized (quite quickly, mind) that I was not curious but full on attracted to genders similar and different than my own. This was further confirmed by a summer fling I had - though that person remains the only femme I have ever been with in a capacity other than friends.

The older I got the more vocal I was about my sexuality. I brought it up whenever I felt it was appropriate for a few reasons: I wanted to validate myself, I had absolutely zero interest in hiding a real part of myself, and I hoped that by doing so, I could give someone else the courage to be who they were. I'm glad I did, and I'm still open about myself and wouldn't change it for the world.

But...that's not to say it's been easy. I am well aware that the label LGBTQIA includes bisexual. But there are a number of reasons I still have self doubt which, unfortunately, has grown recently. There's a lot more biphobia than I thought - from the cishet community as well as the LGBTQ+ community. Here are some of the reasons I've doubted myself:

1. I have only ever been in longterm relationships with men/masc leaning people.

2. I don't remember being in specific danger due to my sexuality. Yes, I have been told I was going to hell. Yes, there were rumors. Yes, there was some discomfort hearing certain family members say they didn't agree. But I never faced bullying nor high amounts of physical/emotional trauma due to my sexuality.

3. My attraction to different genders feels different and varies fluidly. This, I sometimes worry, means that I'm not "really" attracted to anyone other than men.

4. If I am with someone, I am not constantly craving the gender they're not. I have never truly understood why this was a requirement for bisexuality by some people, but it unfortunately is.

5. I feel very often that I am not gay enough because I am in a closed, monogamous relationship with a guy. It's as if I need to constantly be ogling girls, guys, and non binary people to prove who I am. Otherwise, I'm just 'straight'.

6. That I'm choosing straight relationship (It's not. If one or more people in the relationship are not straight, it cannot be a straight relationship). Call it M/F, call it opposite gender, but it's not straight. I'm also not choosing a relationship like that for any particular reason - I simply fell in love with someone.

7. That bisexuality is a stepping stone for being gay. Hell, I even saw comments about this on Eugene Y.'s coming out video, because people were claiming he was bisexual. Actually, he never labeled his sexuality specifically until more recently, and people (including myself) were projecting bi-ness onto him.

8. That I'm needing to be polyamorous or open to be satisfied. I really don't. I'm a 'one person' type of femme, and I absolutely support my polyam peers, but that is not a requirement for being bi, pan, omni, etc!

In other words, I am super duper not in a phase. I do not need to present anyone with an itemized list of who I've crushed on or been in a relationship with to prove who I am. I don't need to tell you what percentage of attraction I have to the beautiful myriad of gender identities in this world.


Robyn Ochs said it best: “I call myself bisexual because I acknowledge that I have in myself the potential to be attracted – romantically and/or sexually – to people of more than one sex and/or gender, not necessarily at the same time, not necessarily in the same way, and not necessarily to the same degree.”

That's it. That is the requirement for being bi. There is nothing more. So if you're reading this and you are questioning, doubting, or feeling off about who you are, that's okay. It's okay to not know. It's also okay to identify as bisexual no matter whether you're monog or polyam, whether you lean toward guys girls or nonbinary people, whether you have types or not, no matter the experience you have. I, and you, are valid.


These are some people I think are awesome!
:iconpricemc::iconwintergiraffe::iconqatsby::iconadelinawolf::iconasche-r: :iconkelmis::iconnicedf: :iconstarlitmachine::iconmoro456: :iconcuddlycuttlefish: :iconchailatteproductions: :iconangeltheshifter::iconthe-dark-fallen::icondaimyon621::iconnewt-onix::iconmarlo404::iconsagethewolfblooded::iconayachan993:
+ more to be added ilu all <3

If you're not here and we're friends, just remind me via note!

.::.


Here are some things I've drawn

[COM]: Luthanium Relaxes by ChocolateQuill Too Much Science by ChocolateQuill Thank You by ChocolateQuill

And here are some things drawn for me, by others!

Tilt-a-Whirl by qatsby Akua by ChaiLatteProductions :AT: ChocolateQuill by Pinky-Poodle.
.::.


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